never say never

never say you'll never be so 'suay' to get some dead bird lying around..
..somewhere near you.
i've seen 3, already.

i seriously dont know what feeling is in me.
i dont even know what i'm talking about.
is it the status kind of issue?
concentration risk.
too much of core.
but i think im undertaking that kind of risk now.
baby came over to bai nian today..(:
kind of weird.


i need time to sort out what's in me.
i need time to identify the 'why'.
i need help but i bet the help can only be me.
i walk alone.
ms Sarah said, "she's always alone".
does it mean i have to? D: i dont want to.
do i have a choice, anyway?
not everything is reciprocal, what to do?