madness

i am weird.
my brother is weird-er.

he often wake up from his dreams, doing some weird stuff.
i caught him twice. lucky, no?

1. he jumped off the sofa, where he always falls asleep..
walked to the shoe rack and put on his slippers.
me: where are you going?
him: go home la! if not go where, you still dont want to go home?
me: you at home already what! go back to your slp!
him: yalahhh! going home now what!
me: eh siao eh, you know where you are right now?
him(irritated): tsk. *walks into room*

i wonder where would he go if i werent there..

2. he woke up and say: use the phon, now can use the phone!
me: huh?
him: use the phone la! tsk.
me: wtf you talking abt?
him: you understand what is 'use the phone'?
me: for what?
him(irritated, again): tsk. *lies down and back to slp*

heh?

epic fail

supposed to do my work now but i know i cant concentrate.
i need to 'share' this failure T.T

i started learning hip hop since april.

out of the 8 lessons, today's the 7th.

and my blur sister and i just got to know that we have been in the wrong classes since lesson 1.

nice. (Y)

and the class that we were supposed to be in actually graduated today.

hmmm.

anw, the staff explained to us and gave us the cert for the course that we have never once attended, together with a $20 bucks voucher.

nice x2. (Y)

lesson learnt: always ask whenever in doubt.

hurhurhur, the end.

single colour

hohoho!
i got my hair dyed, dark chocolat-e.
looks like my original hair colour now,
wanling waste money!
no lah, at least no more 2 colour-ed hair right?
hehehe.
i like (Y).

dearie's having a meeting with the officer now.
worried only.... :/
wonder how's he doing there.

i believe in you dearie (:

Ling is clumsy.
Ling is insensitive.
Ling only knows how to say sorry and thank you.
Ling apologies.
BUT
Yang is forgiving.
Yang is caring.
Yang always knows what to do and lead me through.
Yang understands.
AND
WE love (:

watch your words

nabei.

dry blog

hello there.
kind of reminds me of jerry ang, and the system analysis shat.
hokay, tommorrow's our 9th month.
we'll somewhere we haven't been.
because i USED TO BE a chicken nehneh,
NATO.
imma happy dearie. :D

shit, i cant wait for my toenail to growwwww.
..and i kept cutting deeper D:
will i end up w no toenail like my grandpapa?
hope not leh, im scared >.<
but hand itchy leh, how?!

random many,
i used to blog only when im *emo*
but what is that now? too early to say hur!
hmmm Firdaus said it's good and bad,
i agree;
SerHan said emotions kind of balance up somehow,
i agree too :S
that's dearie wont allow me to drink when he's not around anymore 8-

im seriously looking forward to tommorrow sia!
:omgomgomg:
kind of like having the 'shy' element in me leh.

exceptionism

and yes, im back :D
i went rollerblading with dearie today.
like-a-noob.
BUT it's ok because he's there for me, i know i know :D
almost fell, dearie 'HOPE'.
random to the max.

then i had this damn tummyache.
made me feel like vomiting then we had to stop.
weak girlf, i am.
strong boyf, i have.
:D

my favourite emoticon changed~
from :x
to :D

baby you made me SMILE yo!
i love you many (:
repeating non-stop,
radio spoil uh!?
but i like (Y)

ok, i've got a few more minutes before my personal nag machine starts working~
heeheehee.

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hoho spent almost everyday w dearie :D
<3 ttm.
but i think he ought to take some time for his friends (:
..and there he is~
w huiwen's bro i think.
heh. randoms many!

anw i still think the 'OMG WTF' is lika cooool.
so coincidental please!

it's 1.52am.
i cant sleep D:
help!

LOVE

thank you dearie for showering me w your trust and love
hehehe although i know i will be totally spoilt but who cares!
i guess some girl will care 'cause she wont be happy that we're even closer than before hur.
too bad, i have a doting boyf. *proud* ^.^

hehe i love the pressie you made, dearie. (:
xiexie ni for putting your trust in me, even though there is that girl who tried to start some trouble.
and for the effort you put in today!
i feel your change dearie, and i treasure it.

oh yes, and about the chalet.
i was left alone with the guys on the second night.
WOAH LIKE A FLIRT HOR.
so sad leh, i didnt have plans for the next day like the girls do mah.
i dont feel the reason to pangseh the CLASS thing, you see.
it's not like im included what. lol
like my mum always say, "tao shio shio, beh leng leng".

hah, and i guess i dont need people to judge on how i behave.
oh, or is it an issue whether im STILL attached or not?
LOL, thanks to you, girl, that im now much closer with dearie. :D
i love you, dearie.

aches from within

i dont know if things would be the same if i let emotions overtake me.
i wonder where the problems really lie.
was you or me?
i guess it takes both hands to clap.
sorry.
forgive me for being selfish.
i'm afraid that things wouldn't have any change;
i'm worried that my feelings won't be able to hold me through if the contact continues dropping;
i'm not confident..
what if i no longer miss your call/text?
sorry.
you weren't sure of how strong our relationship is,
i'm 10 times insecure..
sorry.
you're not totally to blame,
it's me that i wasn't familiar with, too.
i love you.

if only

dilemma;
should i, or not?
how;
this way, or that?

another problem behind it;
same questions asked.
the only difference would be being able to see the ending i guess.

D:
WanLing bu kai xin.

unspoken

it's implied; but is it understood i don't know.
waiting only makes me feel even more uneasy.
i need help ):

冷了，淡了；
倦了，累了；
该结束了。
how?

oh well

i haven't been blogging.
i don't think anybody hopped by too.
never mind.

i think. i mean i did something 'so wrong'.
it's like a pet phrase to me, i don't know when it started.
the 2 words just flow out like water from the tap.

my mood is swinging: tick tock.
was feeling sorry for a moment.
but now i'm feeling a little bit.. awkward?
how should i put it?
i don't know.
but i just didn't want to let go, knowing it's not right...
then again, i feel i regained a feeling i use to have.
just a gentle pat on the head..
but it's different, already.

the feeling's badbadBAD. D:
when there's something you want to share so much
but there's nobody you could find...

i want to text you
i want to call you
i want to see you
but i don't know if 'it' means anything to you

never say never

never say you'll never be so 'suay' to get some dead bird lying around..
..somewhere near you.
i've seen 3, already.

i seriously dont know what feeling is in me.
i dont even know what i'm talking about.
is it the status kind of issue?
concentration risk.
too much of core.
but i think im undertaking that kind of risk now.
baby came over to bai nian today..(:
kind of weird.


i need time to sort out what's in me.
i need time to identify the 'why'.
i need help but i bet the help can only be me.
i walk alone.
ms Sarah said, "she's always alone".
does it mean i have to? D: i dont want to.
do i have a choice, anyway?
not everything is reciprocal, what to do?

one step forward, two steps back

"without love we won't die"

"don't let love short-change you"

what's next?

klah,
ms sarah and mr gavin talked to me.. and wyang.
abt the ocp.. and smth else.
LOLOL.
left me undecided.
but things should be the same in the end.
the 'alone' element.. (not me lor! is the class, please.)

we should learn to support each other, dear.
not to instruct (:

went to find baby and back alone, again.
but he has things to complete, what to do?

so, what is love?

last public speaking tutorial.
i'm missing Mr. Jeff alr D:
it's really nice of him to share his personal experiences with us.
made the cold LT so heart-warming.
took a pic with him.
muhahaha.
hope i dont lose my phone again! D:
still missing my k850i k!

back to the topic.
Mr. Jeff made 2 presentations today.
- The difference between men and women.
conclusion: it's all about the communication! (:
- What is LOVE?
based on what i recall...
LOVE
!= seek to hurt
= painful
!= obssession
= possession
!= sacrificing
= givng

somewhere during his presentation,
he hit the jackpot...
made me think really hard loh!
then after that kellynn told me her views,
i sort of agree with her.
maybe it's time i face the fact?

smiles?

it seems like everything kind of resumed...
the smiles; the laughter.
but i can't judge if it's still....
because the feeling is different.
more like a very close friend, next to me.

fullstop

第一次你陪我坐着
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着
还怕我难过
不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么 一起哭了
我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得 只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的 错了就错了
不用担心我 我不爱你了
不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么 一起哭了
我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得 只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的 错了就错了
不用担心我 我不爱你了
至少你记忆里的我
是微笑的 亲爱的
有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐
我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得 只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的 错了就错了
不用担心我 我走了

video phone

went shopping with Lindy today.
she's nice nice nice.
cux i asked her out like super last min,
and she's steady! :D
happy ttm. ^.^

ok she was late as usual,
went for dinner and hunting starts!
i bought errr...
bag, pants, blazer, lashes.
spotted scandals and bangles.
tempted to buy, but managed to control!

having negative thoughts again...
i think if this goes on, hmm you know.

and min said im irritating!
like the 2nd person alr..
but he said he's joking.
so er.....

dont let it go to my head

sorry.

learning

something we ought to learn, by now now NOW.
nobody owes anybody anything.
dependence is not a thing you can find here.
yeah. felt that.
life, erm no.
poly life.
recalled what i heard from my sis.
didnt want to believe her and wanted to prove her wrong.
well, she's not totally wrong lah.
not all right also what! :x
ok, shall stop contradicting myself.

hmm so many projs to do and yet im blogging here.
ehhhh. ok fullstop, bye!

take that

i should've done my spring clean during the 2week hols.
now the look from my dad.... sucks.

take it as it comes!
like the piled up projs im currently working on.
managed to kind of clear 2 today.
kind of.
heh im still trying ok! ):
k lah, although not hard enough.
the strength's not coming from my heart :/
cant get my ass moving.

suddenly have the mood to learn... :D
abit paiseh to say luh.
like abit too old to start.
but who cares!
my sis and cousin's joining me anyway.
i learn alr go and show off! :x
LOL.

anyway Ling says goodbye to halfhalf hair! (:

now it's over

i said in my pm not to procrastinate;
i pluck in my thumbdrive,
opened up my core proj,
opened ie,
came to blog =.-

fail.

Ling skipped p.speaking lec today.
she's starting to lose her interest ):
that's bad.

Ling sort of recovered from her cough.
her diarrhea starts today.
that's very bad.

Ling's still laughing at the toilet thing.
seriously... LOL.

seriously no mood for proj,
but they're piling up like mad ):

Ling went home by herself today.
she feels weird.
"the feeling like familiar, yet unfamiliar lei!"
ok lah, she has been taking 8 with jmin more often lately.
hmm.
hmm.
hmm.

she's hiding something... :/
crazy thoughts ran through her mind.
she knows it's crazy
but she kept thinking of it...

thank you

9th jan -
Elleen's birthday surprise.
HTHT was a success.
many cried, in fact almost all.
my mind was blank in the beginning,
perhaps because of the fact that im in band.
then the absence and all.
yeah but i feel the love, girls!
keep the friendship going alright. :)
Ling broke down towards the end of the session...
Val brought up the topic, and
she came to know that her thoughts were wrong.
the sorry wasn't needed.
she did not blame but she yearned for the answer.
and she got it. :)
thanks Elleen.
thank you.
you unlocked the question.
i love you girls!


yeah and dumb Ling went to text her boyf when she cried.
..when she knows that he had TP to go and he needed sleep.
sorry dear!
but it's alright already, 'cause you made it! :)
i love you dearie!

today -
Ling's having iHCI now,
she is literally waiting for answers.
like she did every week since this semester started.
heh. sorry luh!
cux its iHCI~ :x

dumb and dumb-er

Ling just read the newspaper.....
3 dumb news.
her reaction to them: '...'

1. 2 men went drinking, quarreled over monetary issues.
so Man A stabbed Man B twice
and got shot by police after his attempt to run.

did he realise he's in Singapore?
or thinks he can run faster than the bullet?

2. a 17 year old girl gave birth in the toilet.
shouted in pain, told her mum it's her menstrual cramp.
her mum passed her sanitary napkin.
the girl tried killing the baby, hurt him with knife,
and threw him into the WASHING MACHINE,
covered him with clothes.
her mother saw and hah! the strong boy was still breathing :)
her mum thought she's growing fatter during her pregnancy,
bought her slimming pills.

stupid or stupid?
hurt him but not deep enough to kill.
and then into the washing machine?
trying to wash away the blood?
mother also dumb.

3. first wife abusing second's son.
cut his ears and chopped off 4 of his fingers.

wtf. what's the mother doing?

down?

this is a rotting blog.
but nvm....
so what right?
who cares.

"what is there to emo about when these people with so little are smiling?"
quoted. :)

Ling has a lot to do for her cmsk.
she's not doing well.

her term test results coming out soon.
she doubt it'll turn out well either.
she's not working as hard anymore.
there is kind of no motivation behind her.
instead, there are more distractions than she thought.

she's thinking if she should go alone.
but she doubts it would happen.
her playful self...
or rather, irritating self.

aiya whatever lah, think so much for what?
only Ling cares.
and her boyf :)

Father

somehow having some storm within again. :/
he doesnt see when im doing work.
he closes his eyes to my hardwork.
he left his eyes open to see me rebel.
he says he loses hopes on us, one by one.
he used to pin so much hope. now,
he said that to bring me down.
he only knows when im not home.
he has no idea when im home.
he..

forget it.