affected

somehow the words just kept repeating in my mind.
kind of.
there goes my mood.
ok sorry im pissing people off.
i dont know why.
anw. ohwell.
i dont want that to happen either what.
does it matter.
or rather should it matter?
it doesnt affect the other partner.
i dont know.
im trying to whatever.
ohfuck.

Ling wants to go home now.
she just feels like hiding from everything.
yeah. now she's really alienated.
sort of.

holidays are here.
but Ling's not happy at all.
at least for now.
irritating Ling.
gtg.

ohfuck.

freaking frustrated over the oracle stuff.
and tmr's my test, for goodness sake.
anw, got 2 submissions off my chest already though.
im not going to do it anymore.

when to ehub for a mini 4e2 girls meetup.
was late and am sorry yo! >.<
i rushed through my dinner i dont know why.
had a pleasant surprise i swear~
thanks girls!!!! :D

my absolute boyfriend. (:

100th

FAIL day.

1.
Ling went to school to do her proj today.
supposed to do till 7 but she went off at 4 as all starts going home.
one by one.

2.
Ling's day 1 in school with her bangbanghair.
Estee said she look like.......
Some China Girl.

3.
Ling saw her dad when she was reaching home.
the word 'uncle' just came out of her mouth?
what's worse is her dad actually replied 'hey'.

4.
..and when she corrects herself then her dad said:
"eh? why you never wear specs?"
fyi, Ling's been on contacts lens for 1 year already.

have a nice day, people.

contradiction

Ling should go to her own blog more often.
should; ought to.
couple of times she wanted to blog....
but decided not cux she knows it would mean FINDING TROUBLE.
later some ahlian come and pull my hair how?
ok that was crap.
ya, but every ok already what!
what is she talking about she has no clue.

lifeless Ling went out w her DEAR brother for 2 consecutive days.
swear he made her laugh, unglam. =s
anyway, he just did.
but he has been a good boy yo! :D
well, i bet i wont ever bring him out to swim though.
i cant stop thinking of his continuous fart!
like where the hell did all the air in him came from? :x
sorry brother, but this is life.
stop farting like nobody's business. :s

Ling bought herself clothes!
but nobody knows when she's gonna wear them though :s
no worries, when presentations come.
and she managed to stop herself from buying the heels,
cux she knows she might regret. ^^

talkcocktalkcock.com
bye!

forgotten

hmm. hmm. hmm.
differences in life..
caused a huge gap.
at least for me.
perhaps its really me.
and me, and me.
i see your effort dear.
i feel it too.
thanks.

but can i ever find it back?
im sorry.

it's getting worse

i swear.
it sucks.
f those thoughts.
but i cant help it :(

"It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it."

it hurts to leave it shattered too.

white blog win!

im in the library :D
STUDYING.
i dont know why im blogging.
but i just felt like.
freezing like mad because i was too lazy to stuff my jacket in my fat bag.
screwed my speech.
ee ee ahh ahh woo.

i lost my 2nd thumbdrive for the 2nd time this sem.
found it at reuters though.
lucky x 999999999999999999999999~

i guess over time i start forgetting...
like i said, how long will this first impression last? =(
最初?

abit weird

i shall stop blogging in third person, try :s
i finally see my sister...
it's like a few days then i get one chance to see her,
if im lucky enough.
and my bro went for his band camp...
it's like so weird cux i see him everyday,
either pestering me or sleeping somewhere in the living room.
weirdooo.

Ling was in school from 10-10 today~
ohshit, ok.
er ya all was usual but fecon tut was fun today with the 'game'.
like... we enjoyed transferring? :D
then STUDIED a little blahblah.
home with Jaemin,
and my dear baby said he smell something....
hmm. :z

anyway! i feel like studying but kind of tired :/
how?

band camp is here again!
but im not sure if i can make it on thurs.
and scared of the awkwardness.
how?

hmm.

inappropriate

presentation is later;
WanLing is blogging here.
(Y)

she reached school at 7am,
hoping to edit her presentation slides.
clever her didnt know that all lab actually open only at 7.45am.
so she wandered around in school till the time is up.
and she ends up with more than 2 blisters on each foot.
fail.

as usual, she forgets something when she's in a rush.
she forgotten her hp and her slippers.
heels can kill she swears!
at least for her whom doesnt know how to walk in heels.
and has no interest in 'learning' =.-

how the hell

i dont even know what to say
i dont even know if i can do it
i dont even know if i still have the ability (to do this again)
i dont even know how the hell this episode started
i dont even know how to fucking end this shit.

i hate to bitch
i hate to see you
i hate to feel the way i am
i hate to look at you with the 'coloured' goggles
i hate to be crying w/o knowing what's wrong.

am i suppose to initiate
am i suppose to resolve this (am i even the one who started this)
am i suppose to talk to you
am i suppose to ask you?

but you just have this evil aura around you
LOL?
psychological factors.
what the f is going on.
you tell me.

huga

dinner at yuyin's place was great.
and feels nice to see everybody's laughter!
guess im seeing another side of them.
somehow yeah.
we grow; that's life! :)

ok then back to 'reality'
hmm i have no idea why im sinking deeper each time.
i just get kind of addicted to bitching.
call me selfish?
maybe i really am.
but i dont wish to see my friend get hurt.
or am i thinking too much.
LOL he'll survive.
the 5 days?
sorry.
haa-

riiiight. being left out of the group dont feel nice huh.
i guess nothing will come to me if i didnt ask.
should i identify them as individuals? :o
or..?
it's complicated i guess.
LOL?
but who cares? (:

Ling's becoming guaiLan-er, recently.
maybe just because of that one person.
no i should stop.
haa, but the generic volume is still working.
how?

i feel like i have so much more to say..
but er..?
actually there's nothing else?
i know!

baby is sound asleep.
i should get as much things done as soon as possible before he calls
<3

WanLing is here.

went dover with Love today :D
every little bit <3
hoho, it's MeiZhen!
steamboat at Yuyin's place on sat,
hopefully..
what am i thinking about.

quan test was rather easy.
except that i almost missed the 'twentieth'.
somehow i saw 'twelveth' :x

almost late for school today.
tapped in at 9.15am.
hopefully my attendance is still clean.

my face is peeeeeeling.
darned sunburn.
itching crazy.

kind of disturbed with THAT question.
a little.
and since she thinks from that angle,
i shall play bastard :D
i said something very wrong during lecture,
that wasnt on purpose i swear! :(
sorry dude!

do you feel the distance, dear?

down the road

watching okto, it's about how fat a person can go.
i swear, it's disgusting.

i
dont
know
how
to
do
the
bloody
dbis
tutorial.

shat im lagging.
and she still has project editing to do.

TPrawks was great.
no wind; no shade; damned weather.
and i feel we're treated like disposables.
but the dancing was great, no sacarsm! :D

eeeeequivalent

Ling's not studying when she's supposed to, again.
everything seems to be lagging!
procrastinating.
hhurmms.
blog-hop brought me down.
why? idk.

and Ling has 3 test for this coming week.
QUAN, BFA, P. SPEAKING.
ftw.

i feel so far away.
and all the things i thought of ends up in the wrong places in my head.
i got to sort them out, but how?

it's random.
irony.
two events; one conclusion.
when you start forgetting/remembering some things,
i guess it's time to let go.


with you in me;
the you i do.

cursed lab

fuck it.
it's the second thumbdrive of the sem.
and it's the same freaking lab and comp.
argh.
Ling oughts to be more careful.
but she couldnt help it.
her memory just suck.
=/

Ling will do.

hey.
kind of weird when i hear people calling me 'LingLing'
er... ew.
but ok uh, can accept (at least trying!).
just that my hair wont stand any straighter already.
*cold*
yes, temper has been out of control recently.
tell me what's happening. :/
because of the shiaat?!
LOL hopefully not.
im not suffering from that already, not anymore! :D

my bro went for his dinner round 2 at his godma's place.
peace (Y)
my boyf is heading for his prac at the cdc.
jiayou! (L)
link? nothing. :D

i want to go to the movies tommorrow! ^.^
yesyesyesyesyesyesyes!

SELECT mood
FROM ling
WHERE ling = happy!
crappy.

Ling's randomly random!

excitement?

ok, Ling is supposed to be doing her work now.
but she has this random excitement in her..
that eventually led her to this crazy idea :s
and she's currently discussing it w some master.
..perhaps finding a QUantitative ANalyst to participate.
wonder if she will piss people off though :/
haha anyway, she suddenly urged for that 'coincidence' to happen.
yeah, should stop here before she pisses the readers off.

hohoho. hello!
feels like tons and tons of work is tumbling down
and im at the bottom of the molehill.
heh. sounds stupid hur!
but hmm.
CCN on friday.
temporary tattoos anyone?
i dont want to be the 'mascot' though :x

f

Ling lied, like a bitch, to herself.
she's angry; she's mad.
but there's not a reason to it.
she screamed; she shout.
there's no reason too.
Ling's thinking of the workload, perhaps.
but it doesnt feel that way.
but she's somehow stressed?
fuck.
what is this.

she needs to blast some music.
but her ear hurts.

she went out w/o her keys today.
and there was no one home.
and spare keys not returned to neighbour.
so she waited.
and nobody even thought of giving her a damn call to tell her.
family indeed.

I need stress relief;
perhaps happy pill?
anybody?

catching up

Ling had a weird day.
everything feels weird 'cause its a weird day.
everything became weird 'cause its a weird day.
she feels she'd forgotten something,
then again its weird 'cause she has no idea what it is.

Ling is lazy.
public speaking tmr.
'cher say got no homework, so i neh do anything'

B skipped work today.
but we didnt meet though.
he went out w his friends.
a little bit sad 'cause she has limited time tmr.
..and today's a weird day.

Ling's meeting Kailin to the library.
she can't even remember when's the last time she stepped into a library.
(except for the school's)
weird right?
what's weirder is she text Kailin w a random mood.
and it's weird 'cause she asked Kailin out to study.
ok, Ling's weird; I'm weird.

i am not emo.
i feel weird that's all.

Ling always do brainstorming about what she wants to post.
so weird hoh.
and it often ends with nothing she thought about while brainstorming.
weirder i know!

ok enough of the 'weird's.
my post is kind of long today :s
byebye!

lesson

having iHCI lecture.
no way i can concentrate w jaemin and sanchez.
ok lah, and my lappy in front of me.
heh. sorry lo.
supposed to go for the captain's ball thing.
forgotten all about it.
and then i went to school in dress.
LOL?
say all you want.

i miss baby dearie.
lecture's over.
bye!

greed

i feel greedy.
i know i know.

school was as usual today.
went to tampines for dinner.
tried getting my shoes but failed.
wish B was there with me.
heh.

Ling has this weird feeling that's bringing her down.
maybe because she's imagining things when she's alone, again.
seriously weirdooo.

Ling feels as if she's slapped with a thousand work undone.
yet she feels optimistic about it.
hopefully she can deal with them.
her Dear's giving her some encouragement.
did work a little, just a little :x
<3

<3

'quarreled' with dear just now.
sweet :D
random trashing does the trick, notallthetimethough. :s
<3
thanks dear for accepting my flaws.
we'll work on it together yeah?
hoho Ling loves her baby manymany.

poor him having lesson now. :(
feels so bad when both side of me act together. =/
guilty.

Ling lost her thumbdrive at reuters lab yesterday.
sadsadsadsad.
HOPEFULLY some nice being returns it.
fortunately it's only week 2,
beats losing it during week 10, right? =)

open

hey there.
im supposed to be studying right now but..
who gives a shit.
hmm
Ling wasn't able to hide her smile, like seriously!
heh, she met her baby for dinner :D
the first time since he started his attachment!
din't even expect myself to be meeting him on a weekday.
and so Ling went smiling ..and smiling.
hoho and Jaemin was like laughing at me for that.
ok i know im some sort of silly but.. heh~
i dont know how to hide it :xx
hmmm
B ate prawn noodles for both lunch & dinner.
nice (Y)
..and he's off to bed already.
pigheaddy. :P


and we talked about chicken rice .........m today.
=.- seriously serious crap!
hohoho ok, enough.
the happy Ling say bye! :D

3rd

hey dear im blogging 3rd in 3 consecutive days.
heh. yesterday was our 3rd month.
wasnt a great start but.. =D
*scape-d. seriously so cute to spend our day there.
hmm never thought of going there at all till B suggested.
kind of boring 'cause of the limited rides but, w B <3
eat play blah,
went to somewhere in ubi to pay the down payment for B's love.
hoho.
actually i think it's a bit early..
but i think he wont be able to stop thinking unless that's his.
right? xP
andand, guess what.
tired B slept from ard 7pm to 8am.
nice~

poor him working on his mapping.
hur! JIAYOU k~

ty huiwen and weide for replacing us though. :x
bye!

from you

when i all i wanted was just a few words of comfort from you..
i dont think i will raise my voice right away.

the you.
who aches to hear me cry.
idk where are you.

how does it feel.

im blogging now prolly because QUanlitative ANalysis asked; :P
or i haven't been visiting this web for..?
lalala.

ok cds..
hmm IM BACK W BFA and P SPEAKING!
yep. monday please come, so that there wont be ANYMORE changes.
sucks to have things clashing together.

supposedly going out w B on sat, perhaps just for a movie...
but projects just start stacking.
ohwell, studies first.
i promised.
so yeah.

broke down today.
sorry guys!
i tried to control but..
somehow when everybody around you starts to say: "aiya, nvm la. one week only."
it just doesn't feel too good.
well, this shit just started.
im still trying to adapt.
please bear with me >.<
oh, at least im not that kind of super sticky type.. :0

in another words,
maybe it's because of the frequency so low that we treasure each other so much yeah? =D
hohoo. i love you, B! <3
jiayou jiayou JIAYOU for sip and bike!
really hope dear gets his license so that we can meet more often =s
but must must must note safetyyyyyyy.
like selfish, but no choice! :x

okok enoughenough.
muhahaha. Ling's happy now :D

material

i realize...
when i get crazier; noisier; stupid-er; whatever,
i am emo x2 when im alone.
idky but i know why.
LOL?

hmmm
supposed to work with b today
but changed to newcomer kenneth..
he reminds me of Daniel.
like twins please!

B's out with his friends.
hmms.
somehow..
=/
not the issue with going out w his friends..
but..
hmm.

我们的相遇好甜蜜；
我们的结局是佛会更幸福呢？

焦虑

when distance becomes an irritant,
Ling somehow couldnt put her heart at ease..
she's worried;
she's afraid;
she's scared.
and she prefers leaving it untold..
well she doesnt know how to explain?
=/

beLIEve

sometimes i wonder..
whether im believing in the wrong thing; wrong person.
the things im hoping to hear doesnt get to me;
the person im hoping to get support from doesnt seem to have faith in me..
"你行吗？"
wretched.
from top to middle;
from middle to bottom.
maybe i really deserve that.
but do you have to trample my confidence?

time killers

ling has been thinking..
of smth she doesnt know how to explain?
just this weird feeling filling up her mind.
.and perhaps keeping her alive.
kind of forgotten the feeling of beating heart huh.
crap.
results out,
not too bad but still much room though.
hmm.

do i really have so much to dislike?
she has no idea what's in her.
haa, stop.
it doesnt affect, anyway.

finally.
what is it that she wants?

the white blog

hur.
my blog is dead =/
posts stopped; so did the tags.
ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
keep it alive leh! =D

been watching my queen.
the episodes are soooo long! =S
really nice show though~

got to know a lot of new people recently.
my Pentium 2 brain is still trying to absorb zzz
hmmmmmm.

sis leaving for holiday on thurs.
hopefully i'll remember to see her off. :x
i'm NOT that bo xim ok!
due to some unknown reasons =s

crazy side in me...

NG WEE YANG!
I MISS YOUUUUUU.
and pi dan xP

*random*
bye!

post!

first day of work yesterday.
pretty fun xD
better than aquamarine la huh. ^.^
click click type type.
bangladeshi-s.

heh. off i go!

hmm

always have some kind of urge to blog after blog hopping uh.
wonder wonder wonder.
am i remembered =s
maybe.
wishful thinking on my part huh. =|
i want to return to nvss too!

erm erm erm.
i'm in some dilemma now actually.
should i should i not.

well well well.
get this over.
i am currently waiting for my darn brother to return home
so that i can have my first meal of the day.
clock say 2.39pm.
eeediot.
i just wish he could be more considerate.
i didn't mean to shout over the phone though.
Ling says sorry.
BUT!
i wanted to give him a treat 'cause it's the last day of his exam!
=(

=/

.erased.

fren

still brooding over that word.

but yeah, mood's turning good already. :)
somehow still kinda negative though. =/

it was mad rush just now.
just to get to the toilet :S

reason

so much to resent coming home.
so stucked in this fridge.
so irritating.
so fucked up.
so disgusting.
so stressful.

where's the care.
where's the love.

full of crap.
full of shit.

so much for stressing myself every now and then.
so much for carrying the burden of responsibilities.

that's what I get
when I didnt let my heart win.

infinite loop

somehow i just had this loop looping in my mind :D

<3 = 0;
while(ling<3yang){
<3++;
}

i love baby many many (:

spent my day with baby.
diabetic :$
baby cooks awesome crab :P
*yumyum*

ling's becoming a glutton!

crazy yesterday; stressful today; unknown tomorrow.
baby tell me what to do.

你让我知道爱一个人的幸福。
不要为了这些事不愉快好吗？

irritated

I. am. so. freaking. frustrated.
I've. been. in. front. of. this. damn. computer.
for. the. whole. bloody. day. waiting. for. those. pathetic. slides.
I. am. not. going. to. wait. already.
I. won't. let. vulgar. appear. here. anymore.
so. relax. people.
@#$^%^*&*(&*(^%&$%@$!$@#%$$^^%&^*^(^&*%$^@$!@!##$^%^**&(&(%
they. represent. my. words.

don't. sorry. me.
It. doesn't. work. anymore.

how could i

T.T nice careless Liao Wan Ling.
hurz.
speechless.
:(

i doubt you felt.

ability

control control control, Ling!
i am trying! sorry!
gahhhh!
somehow i feel the change in me.
what's wrong? =/

hmm. and im expanding :(

rush rush rush hour from 5-6pm.
started print and stuff only then.
and we handed in our work 1 min to deadline.
we ought to stop all these last minute!
at least try? T.T
big thanks to JunYi for doing the running!
alright, 2 down; 2 more to go.
next up will be the presentation & interview >.<
help help help help help help help :(
LIAO WAN LING JIAYOU!

what am i doing.
deep down i still want to be daddy's little girl.
help.

rights

kk im fine by now.
sorry!
erase that from your minds, people! :x
Eugene say my image.. er.. gone?
oops =/
i change already~ :D

25 July 09

many years to last a lifetime;
every month to know better;
each day to treasure;
a moment to make my heart batter.

I love you, baby.

find me a tighter screw

ling is currently without a screw that fits.
dear kind souls please get her a tighter one.
her's has been loooooooooooooooooose all the while.
actually since this morning. :D
well, maybe she's just being nervous.
over something she doesn't know what.
heheh ~
lu la la lu la la lu la lu la lehhh!

k. ^.^
JIAQI called me when she woke up yo!
like.. even before she wash up? xD
sooooooooooooo cute eh~

WEIYANG is bathing now!
slow! xD

hur?

Daniel and HongBin's birthday tmr.
2 guys -hurm, can't say much here huh.
KangYi's birthday on sunday. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all!
don't think you guys will see this though.
muhahaha.

on phone with baby :D
he says i must be talking bad about him. =0
i am? xD

he's working again tonight :(

hello there

hmm the 2nd time im blogging during SAS.
not my fault yo! :x

so boring!
and SOMEBODY's working again! =/
hurrrr, and this is going on for another one month?
then it would be smth else.. hmm.
but, yay! and he woke at 8 today :D

cramp-ed for the whole of last night.
ewww.
watched some documentary about third sex ytd.
was thinking it might not be a bad thing actually :x
*kill me*

yep, im off.
bye :D

#$@$%$&*^%$%

frustrated.

i failed for the freaking 5th time man, the 5th.
no kidding.
i give up already!

out with mum and bro today.
they just wouldnt pick up that bloody call,
when the phone's just right in front of them.
nice.

saw some nv-mates today,
cant recall their names! :(
i can only remember calling one of them "wugui" though :x
well, he looks like one?

dad's birthday, dinner with family later.
most probably with a new member.
not bad huh.
happy birthday papa. =)

im feeling down, down, down.
for some reasons, what are they?
somehow just felt im being a little selfish, maybe.
i shouldnt be, i know.
what right do i have, hmm.


im fine.

to the max

trying to get started on sas.
we are lag to the max. =/

i really want to get things off my chest,
i don't know how.
i am confused to the max. =|

i want to meet baby,
but i guess it's too often.
well, he is busy almost to the max. :s

am i sticky to the max? hmmm.
i miss him to the max. :(

and i need some ear like i used to have.

blissful little girl

:D

watched obssessed - all about chocolates ^.^

on phone with baby + doing proj? :x

ok, nothing much alr =P

oh yes! and DanielT. didnt text me back yesterday. x.x

bye!

argh!

eeeeeeeeeEeeeeeeeeee!
woke up 5 am in the morning for the CHARITY golf event.
not bad huh, quite slack. =x
hmm. sleep till like 6? hoho.
i miss baby! =(
driving, home to sleep, now work. =/
what to do~
that dumbx9999999999999999999999999999999999999999 1.5k supervisor!
@%#$&^&*(^&*%^@$!##%$&^(*()(_*%#~@#!
anyways, till 4 am.
how do survive! D:

hurhurhurhurhurhur.

hey hey!

in the midst of SAS now.
..and then i realised i haven't posted anything for quite awhile!
hoho. that's why im here.
ok crap.
ANYWAY, i blogged! =)
123(by JaeMin)
456(also by JaeMin)
7890-=(ok, that's by HuiWen)

muhahahaha. gotta do SAS now[act guai] =0
hmm. i want to end earlyyyyy, pretty pweaseeee! D:

the mixed

I'm sorry, baby.
i ought to be more sensitive.
you know how stupid i can get when i get in a situation like that.
sorry. my brain wasn't working.
sorry. my heart just went soft.
sorry. i won't let this repeat ever again.

baby, please be assured you are in every position to say NO!
and i'm really touched by your message.. =)

that little tinge.. i'm happy. :D

what's worth.

first of all, I am SINCERELY sorry for the eyebrow incident. =0
JaeMin, forgive me? :D
i know nothing; she knows all.
i can't deny the fact that i am, still, thinking about it.
can't get it through 'cause i see it happening everyday.
what to do~?
anyway, you decide what/who you want to believe in. =)
i wish you well..
but sorry, i am selfish.
i can't bring myself to go near..
yeah, you know.
the feeling now, is what you won't know. :)
stay happy...

messed up

kay, sorry.
all will stop there.
argh.
so far... idiotic.
nothing to say.

me like a biatch.
i know you agree.

i know a million sorry-s might not work.
but it's was out of pique.
sorry.
you don't.


great escape.

angry like hell

this post is for what i heard yesterday.
f it.
shock stun angry.
can't get to sleep.
yep, the last jigsaw is found.

fraud.
word to summarize everything.
looks are deceiving; don't judge one by their looks, nor their behavior.
girl, take care of yourself alright.
time will show, i agree.

it's irritating me.

on purpose?
LOL. save the effort, girl.
i don't have to the need to behave like you.
some words i just can't use here.

hmm.

kbox-ed with the Ks today.
uncontrollable laughter, as usual! :D
song after song~
..and NO sore throat oh!

hmm, waiting for love's call but i bet she's in her dreamland by now.
i miss you, lovelove! <3 style="font-style: italic;">that Ronald :x
(some should know why 'that' is in italics uh)
so mean of me! :S

baby working again :/
4am, should i wait? :0
since it's 1plus already uh.
see how long i can tahan k :x

lastly, to Stef,
really treat you as my best friend,
for that period at least.
but you didn't notice perhaps.
thanks.
yes, my lost. such friend

sorry

sorry to my group members :S
you know, pms.. ya that's why.
if you get what im talking about..


day's are going down, down-er.
guess i really lost it.
sorry i can't hold you back.
maybe it's just me.
but please stop torturing me with that unmindful attitude.
i can feel it, enough.
i'll stop, or maybe i already did.
you should, too.
fk, what's in my mind?

dear,
your night(s):
workworkworkworkwork.
you need:
sleepsleepsleepsleepsleepsleep!


movie with my monkey cousin on fri. :D :S :/ =T
mixed.

miscommunication

trust me to be awake at this timing.
im a early sleeper,
don't expect everybody to make their brains work at your timing.
i am tired, i know you are too.
but i can't get my brains to function at this timing, girl.

i am selfish,
but it's that something physical that makes me tired.
i can't control.

annoyed to be woken up in the middle of my sleep.
really hate it.
genes from my family. :)

a little bit here and there..
i don't think online discussions can get us anywhere.
it's just so hard to convey ideas thru a conv. online.

while waiting..

hi world!
Ling is currently waiting for her phone to ring.
she told quan that she's going to bed but she can't seem to lie down yet.
muhahhaa.
Ling's feeling a little excited 'cause finally there's school tmr! :S

weird eh.


happyLing went out today, making her even happier.
so sadLing stayed home to emo, to become sadder.
what am i talking about? idk T.T
anyway, she spent her evening with her dearest. :D
thank you baby for everything :)


LASTLY, Ms Sarah asked what Ling want to achieve before she die.
She replied: to hug my dad. :D
I DID IT, PEOPLE!
:D:D:D:D:D:D
I CAN DIE ALREADY! :T hmm.

dumb

stupid ling almost use her admin no. to sign in to blogger. =.-
fat ling ate A LOT today.....
it's fathers' day celebration so...
diet tomorrow? :S
kay im crapping.
main thing is, ling = fat.

ling wants to thank quanquan big big!
kk broken ang moh. :(
for the beans, cookies 'N' cream and the fries! :D

baby working till 4am D:
hur.

up and down

i shall post more to get over the previous.
muhahaha.
i won't delete it.


hmm, currently nurturing my fats..
stucked at home, only free to go at 4.
ftw.
doing SAS proj,
practically staring blankly at the case study..
with no idea what else I can pick from that short little thing.

baby's having his beauty sleep now :/
he woke me up at the most inappropriate time yo.
after we hang up all the alarms start ringing.....
*grumblings*

went swimming with Millie this morning.
hilarious please, 30 mins.
Millie, make up session next week!
..beach road for lunch, carbs back + extra carbs. zZz

done.

SUCH GIRLFRIENDS

pardon me for posting this.
but i seriously think that words will spread to me if
you girls need 'full atendance'
so, what's the point?
and it doesn't feel good when i feel that you don't even intend to ask
WHEN i actually took the initiative to call.
thanks.
don't tell me both THOUGHT the other party will inform me.
that's crap, and i shan't eleborate on what it means to me huh.

Sanchez said: ..then they are not a clique.
now, i understand.
Stefan said: it's ALWAYS ok to pangseh.
yes, i agree.



enough of the girls,
i am currently in the sch's library.
..with my classmates.
JaeMin and HuiWen catching a wink
before the 2 latecomers arrive :D

fits to the T

random random random.
Ling has got her week planned, not sure if she's gonna follow it.
Ling feels as if she's pulled out of her comfort zone.
Ling is feeling uncertain.
Ling is scared.
Ling is dying to back out.
Ling has nobody behind her.
Ling is losing them, and maybe herself.
help..

kpo leh, no more white fonts! =)

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼 眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己判刑
忘了我也值得被关心
一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了，快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重
漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球
还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

hey!

out with quanquan today! :D
shopping!
feels like we went round S'pore in a day? =o
cookie for WanLing; pie for Stefan! ^.^
hmm bus-ed here there everywhere today! :x
and nice quanquan bus-ed me home again,
nice WanLing said: thank you korkor
to make him happy =P
nice oh?

heheheh! class bbq tmr :D



Ling has something up on her sleeves ^.^
she hopes he's ok with it.. :x

issue of trust

i don't what i can say.
i am just afraid, of practically everything.
铨我不否认我曾对你动过心，
但杨的主动虏获了我的灵魂…
baby you got me all tensed up,
that explains the heartbeat..

mum you got me so worried..
and those negative thoughts just kept coming.
i want you to stay well and healthy, please..

-

Ling had a boring boring boring day,
so she's making her 2nd post.
hur, lifeless yo.

Ling practically wasted her day,
rotting at home.
nice.
and off she went to her granny's place with her
PARENTS, i mean MUM and DAD.
super rare ok!
i looked forward to today! :)

and then she received a call from lovelove =(
i'm sorry, lovelove.
sure i am the worse person on earth.
to forget tmr's fri, 12 june.
well, we found a way out still.
might not be the best but hope love's comfortable with it uh.
i'm sorry D:

the worst thing of today,
Ling's ordered to buy smth for her sis earlier on.
when she reached heartland,
her parents walked off,
assuming that she's going alone.
wth? how long will the escalator take to bring you
to the 2nd level?
nice.
when she's back home her sis told her that it's the wrong thing,
and she threw it back to her.
THANK YOU.





calls from baby today kept me occupied :)
though he kept going back to sleep lohhhh.
he's currently at work now =(
hmm hope he doesn't get angry when he sees the message. =/

in the rain.

在雨中我送过你 在夜里我吻过你
在春天我拥有你 在冬季我离开你
有相聚也有分离 人生本是一曲戏
有欢笑也有哭泣
不知谁能 谁能躲的过去
----
你说人生艳丽我没有异议
你说人生忧郁我不言语
只有默默的承受这一切
承受数不尽的春来冬去
你说人生艳丽我没有异议
你说人生忧郁我不言语
只有默默的承受这一切
承受数不尽的春来冬去

a super old song i found! :D
can't find a nice version though =/
*emo*

:D

hohoho!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KELLYNN! :D
surprised still worked though i made soooo much noise oh :x

kay, went off early(earliest) with quanquan! :D
that bad quanquan scam-ed me as usual. :s
today worse, kenna scam-ed to parkway lo! xP
kk jkjk.
went hunting for hp strap before my mum gets one for me =.-
didn't get one though.
had subway cookie for dinner. hoho!
nice quanquan bus-ed me home today! :D
thankkkk yewwww. ^.^

hmmmmmmmm.
out again tomorrow! xDD

i lost you

i'm sorry, i lost you.
somehow.

things never go the way you wish they could be.
helpless.
you walked away, what can i do?
closest yet furthest.
it's the shortest, too.
everything's going weird and different.
put the blame on me.
i care.



baby passed his ftt =D
hohohoho WanLing 好开心！

wonder

ostracized.
i didn't know the meaning till 5 seconds ago.
that word just kept coming into my mind.
yep, i think i am though....


okok, i promised quan about that emo thingy. =0
anw, nice JIEJIE here brought quanquan to compass point today! =)
his first time oh ^.^

拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫
movie with baby after work yesterday :D

谢谢你的everything…
i still feel bad though =(

upset

paranoid or fact?
..or maybe it's just me...

hey it hurts ok.
stop behaving that way.
i don't want to lose my closest friend..

dilemma

freak. bitchy. agrh.

actions speak louder than words.
it always applies.

to..****
perhaps it's because of that something lacking
that made up the distance.
..and you feel like a koonhow somehow =/
telling me nothing leaves me insecurity.
i'm sorry.

to..*****
我们…
i don't know,
it's that tinge of sweetness =)
but i'm feeling bad..
and a little confused.
it matters.

me

yes im selfish =|
i can't help, im sorry.

thank you,
to some nice girl who took my phone.





if living is without you.
在需要依靠时，我只想到你。

2nd post

hello world! :)
ling is happy though her pay for 6th june is gone in advance!
just had dinner with familyyyyy! :D
nothing more important that that yo.

studied with stef, again! ^.^
wasn't as productive today though ):
sorry meimei! =/
(last sorry! :x)

ling's feeling weird today, oddball.

bite a metal pole

i hope i won't get emo by the end of this post.
muhahahha. realize i always update halfway, sian, then EMO. xD
WanLing, not the way to go ok!
hmm poor ling has been studying recently..
and she feels nerdy 8-|

hehehee anw, i'm alrighteee now. :D
至少我更确定了自己的感觉…
不知道自己做得对不对，
只知道自己回不了头了。

i don't know why but i just want to thank you, again. :)

MEIZHEN! movie on friday okie? :D
call to reply yo! :x

i miss band, and all my bandmates..
Mz, Heri, Lianghao, Siyi, Gwen, Alanna etc. :(
i miss the loud laughs for no reason;
miss the not funny jokes;
every piece of memory i have. =/

take my hand.

i think ling oughts to become bravier to match her MAN character =0
she's afraid of too many things, too gu niang already yo! (:

yeah, ling's a weak girl, super weak one.
she wasn't strong enough to wait..
she gave up just because she's so scared that story will repeat itself.
GKH, this is how much you impacted me.
thanks.

rest is for me to keep..
cux there's far too much more to speak.

25 :D

wheeet 25th post on this blog :D
smileeeeeeee!
hmm, ling is lazy today...
here's a short short short short summarized post =x
..and im crapping to lengthen this post. ^.^

hmm..
ling did 2.4km on tue and she's surprised she can still do it!
apparently because she haven't been doing any exercise....
look at her size! =/

wed was alrighteeee.
did bbfin mock, unprepared and still got loads to study! :(
studied with chyuan chyuan at the library after school :D
dinner, then homeeee!
ling hates cockroaches =/

ling cried during her break today..
she is afraid of cats D: ..and it stopped underneath my seat.
so i.... yaaa. T.T weak weak WL! :(

celebrated ameme's birthday today (:
fun joy laughter as usual ^.^
love them allll!
dinner-ed at fish and co.
then met stef after his training to 'fetch him home'! =x
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELIA! :D



not bad huh~ my post is not short!
in fact it's longer than usual k! ^.^
byee!
点点头承认自己害怕..

101 uncertainties

what am i supposed to do?
you're not doing the right things.. =/
i know i shouldn't be thinking so much,
but your actions are misleading.
dependence is the key..

经过那么久的独立，
你让我安稳地靠在你肩上…
让我瞬间被你溶化；无法正常思考。
你是认真的？还是我想太多了？
tell me what you mean;
take me out of this.

ling is a happy girl :D

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
class outing ytd, thank you all for coming! :D
hohoho~ more people next time k! xP
movie, laughter, dinner, laughter, pool, MORE laughter! :DD
wheee~ 3rd pool session and i improved a lot, i swear! :x
or maybe luck? =0
thanks to sanchez aka ajonn for teaching oh! :x
anw, OLs brought their friends along =/ hur..
nvm, ling is still happy to be with her class!

*studied* in sch with Stef today. :x
the keyword.... kay, i'm guilty :s
sorry chyuan chyuan! =/

this is SHIT, and "I" can't get out of it.

tired

i'm tired of being afraid; tired of being tired;
tired of left alone, in the dark.
..and there's no pillar of support; nobody to rely on.
now that there's a hole....
i dont know what to do.

dad, i need you =/
you were always here when i am down.
but now you dont realise it anymore.
it's me that's hiding in my room,
but will you come in to take a look?


thank you to Daniel,
for letting me fill my mind with you all these while..
i guess i wont 'make use' of you anymore?
i wont say your name again; i will delete your messages.
goodbye..

why =\

yep, i am emo again.
this time i know why but i dont know why.
is it because of me?
he looked to pissed =/
do tell me if i ever did the wrong thing that made you angry k.
dont be cold, please just dont.
hhur, my whole mood is just brought down, just like that.

kay, i am doing SAS now in the lab.
my group mates are doing, and im posting.
i am an idiot.
back to work, bye.

random

my 1st post on my lappy (:
hohoho
my mood is not going up and down anymore!
happy birthday to the MAY babies! :D
Van, Millie, Kevin, Amelia; Dajie and my dear didi, heri!
hope heri sees this D:

hmm haven't been studying =/
my head getting big alr >.<
week 5's starting, term test on week 7.
everything's coming T.T

i realised i got short legs :o

the Bitch

Your the kind of girl that doesn't wanna be messed with. You have that: Get outta my way! personality and usually come off edgy and rough to people. A lot of people don't like you that much but keep the ones that are your friends close, you never know when they might dissapear.

D:

no idea

emoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
i have no idea why but i am just down D:
i'm brought down by no sound.
confused?
i hate this complicated thing!
it's driving me crazy. =/

Liao WanLing, stop it.
you got everything mixed and it's in a mess now.
you irritating shit.
can't you just do more for your family?

i got my foot glued.

ignore what i said for those who read ok! :D
Dan is a nice guy, he replied :x
i am contented (:

yep, this is why im a happy girl :D
hoho, we went frolick to see Wugui's chio bu!
so-so only lo~ *don't beat me* xD
as long as he's happy.. she's chio ok. :x

ermerms, i don't think i am ready to give up.
too lazy? :x
idk.

hello there!

yep, enough of emo-ing! :D
if not people will find me boring already D:
hoho ^.^
ling is a happy girl again! :)

廖婉伶, 没事了!
忘了他,你没有损失;
没有他,你得到更多的友情.

then, again.

hopeful or denial?
truth or imagination?
angry or confused?
you or just me?
miss or miss?

i am NOT well.
i ought to know where i stand, i know.
but it hurts. D:




PS: stay away from me.

sweet sugar candyman

well, suddenly felt like rambling but nobody's there for me..
had been thinking of whether i should let it go or let you know.
everything's been settling down, but something inside me is not.
idk, just felt that way.

Van's birthday celebration yesterday.
seriously miss the girls so much D:
all the fun and laughter, and me;
all the crazy things we did together. :)

feeling tired mentally.
i need a break.
i don't want to lie to myself but i can't control.

December

DECEMBER Birthdays: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions.Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

stefan asked me to update.

hello blog! my title clearly stated why i'm here.
hoho. mr wugui is too bored and so he wanted to me to update. =x

Dinner with the class on sat. :D
attendance is 5 out of 20. hurhur! ):
but we enjoyed the dinner and craps!
desmond came and we chatted a little. ^.^
hehehehheheheeeee C240 oei~
SOMEBODY bluffed me bus stop don't have 53 and i actually believed for a few secs =.-
and i met JEFFERY on the bus! :D
didn't realise it was him till he called =/
my first thought was just somebody that looked similar :x
so long since i last saw him yo!
he's going to NS soon! ^.^

jiayou to all who are going to NS! (:

beginning =D

so sorry! i know i havent been posting. =s
busy larrrrrr~ xD

anyway, school has started.
FOC was fun, so is WEEK ZERO!
the camp was filled with MY noise =x
went to sentosa with the school, FBI got the most people! =D
week 1 just ended.
a lot of thoughts and feelings going through my mind =/
mainly the problem with the bonding of the class..
i know tongues may wag but i dont have a choice!
im trying hard to stick with the girls though.
2ndly would be the increasing workload.
i can hardly get my engine started!
oh man, i need help. ):
had a little mood swing recently. going up and down.
kay, i am emotional and i cant help it.
whether you like it or not, people this is me.

yep, enough about school.
i missed out nvss speech day today due to personal reasons.
i am so filled with guilt.
but i am sure all that performed did great for their official stepping down performance. (:
cheers! :)
i miss the band, really.
maybe i am in no position to say anything 'cause i missed out so much..
but all i said is from the bottom of my heart.
i love the band!
esp MeiZhen Gwen LiFang LiangHao Siyi Alanna Heri EeYjourn
they left deep memories in my heart.

last thing i want to post is him. (:
even a short 1 hour with you is enough to drown me for days or even weeks.
thank you, and i'm waiting for my sweet! :D

cheerful ..and mouldy? =o

thank you all who cheered me up yesterday yo! (:
ling is a happy girl again! =D
teehee not being biased but want to thanks Dan specifically for the picture =x
it's so CUTE! ^.^
not sure how many people had seen it before but that was when my mood went up in a short while! :DD

yeap, home for the day.
in front of the comp for hours.
mouldy again. =s

disappointed.

i lost.
dad, i am really disappointed to be questioned that way.
forget it.
you want to know who i was out with, where i went.
you worry that i will follow the wrong people.
you ever wondered what happened around me?
did you even notice that i haven't been feeling well since i was back from camp?
did you bother asking me to share my life with you?
i am always taking my initiative to talk about things happening in school or things that made me upset, hoping for at least your participation in the conversation.
what have i got?
wet blanket.

yes, i have been out till late recently.
i am already feeling bad, but you never know what's in my mind.
that sentence of yours was sure to hurt alright.
you really think i don't give a damn to the family, i am speechless.
the heart and effort i put in went straight to zero, thank you.

you worry i go out with the wrong people.
you bothered knowing who are they?
forget it. you are not interested, insisting they are ALL bad.
i will keep that sentence of yours in mind.
'if you continue to follow the wrong people, you can stop telling people you got 8 points for O level.'
LET ME TELL YOU.
i got 8 points to do you proud.
i don't want to disappoint you.
i want to let you know that your love for me is of worth.
your stress was suffocating but i bear with it because i know you care.
all this while, YOU are the one who is flaunting to the relatives that i got that grades.
i only smiled when relatives talk to me about it.
dad i really hope you can trust me.
worry about me the right way.
i have got nothing to hide from you.
i want to chat with you like we did when i was young.
dad i love you.

WE CAN DO IT

broke down during camp on tue =/
guess i can't really say much,
i wasn't there; i'm in no position.
but i still believe NVSB can do it.
NOTHING beats our fighting spirit and our efforts show!

FOC WAS SUPER GREAT ALRIGHT!
love it to the max! (:
all the cheering left a deep impression in my heart.
NO REGRETS.
met new people, and in fact got to open myself to all kinds of people.
feeling was great.
i took quite some time to open up though.
muhahahahaha, eyecandy was the best part yo.
clashed with Amelia o.o
and he actually asked us who's our eyecandy.
how do we answer? :0
yepp he's number is with me now, but idk how to fish for info :x
*shy* =xxxxx
ytd marks the end of FOC.
mass dance, etc.. i'll never forget. (:

defeat

guess i just have to admit.
i am alone.
i used to be so afraid of being alone,
but i was confident.
i had people around me most time; i was crazy as can be.
now?
i can only laugh, at myself; my past.
i need people there by me, but who exactly?
all around get busy with work/studies.
me?
practically wasting my everyday off, somehow.
i always claim i'm busy.
who knows?
i think i'm lying to myself sometimes.
words fall through me, & logic's a fool.

urge

okay, i went to look around the blogspots and livejournals.
and i felt the urge to post something.
worked as usual today.
i work 6 days out of 7 a week.
call me a wonder woman yo.
hmm JiaQi was accepted after the interview!
like straight away~~

yeap, her first day at work today.
kinda weird to see her at work ehh.
*suagu* never see before :x

guys, i'm pretty shag after these few mornings of torture.
i need a break but i can't >.<
because Janice says: It's your last week, anyway!
wth!

yeah, had been messaging Dan recently.
kind of often? *muhahhaha*
he has been sleeping when the sun's almost out;
waking when the sun's on the way down.
he can fall asleep when i just reached my workplace? LOL!
..and we can actually squeeze out some time to text.
*contented* ^.^

alrights, ling is happy now.
bye~

happy day :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEO KAILIN!
yeaps, she's 17 while i am still a 16 year old kid.

somehow my mood to post was killed =/
anyways, i think i am beginning to fall deeper. ><
i know i shouldn't but my mind just doesn't work with me.
i guess people who don't know me will simply think i'm despo
or whatever they say.
aha, idk.

Dear Mr Wrong Guy,
please give me a little bit of space to breath.
you are not the right one and you are suffocating me with carbon dioxide.

premenstrual syndrome

really nothing can explain my mood best.
i have no idea, totally.
all just happened without a reason.
What The Fuck.

wanted to tell Dan but didn't know how to explain. =/
i feel so freaking neglected today?
practically all alone today,
and nobody actually realised/cared.

if money is all you ask for, take every penny i have.
i don't give a damn.
for fuck's sake just stop pressing me for them.

happy + angry

ling feels happy because she went somewhere ^^
ling is angry with her parents though. :s

ok i'm going to start my post already :D
firstly, i was so so so freaking nervous this afternoon.
people in Aband today will know why :s
..and then when clock strikes 4, my heart started beating twice as fast T.T
ola, all crap but that really happened. >.<
then, i went to ehub to pass Lindy her pullover. :DD
..and there i waited for Dan while he was sleeping at home.
he reached only at 7+ kay! *i'm so patient* :x
hmms practically looked at him when he's having his meal uh.
i sound so sick yea. T.T
followed him around the mall and blahblah.
till my cousin and the rest knocked off.
cab-ed home thereafter. :D

..&& i've got my broken contact lens stucked inside....
i have NO IDEA how to remove it.
IT HURTS. )): that's all.


TO MEIZHEN!
teeeheee! dedication :DD
i missssss you every bit alrights! =/
didn't get to see you today & i have so much to tell! ):
about Dan though. :x
i want to know about things happening around you too yea!
jiayou jiayou jiayou for your studies kay! :D
<3,wanling.

bliss

i dont know how to post!
man, i just feel so blissful, but i know i am thinking too much.
just can't help feeling that way yeah.
i want to thank Lindy, though things may not end the way i want.
being able to know Dan is really nice. (:
enjoy his company though we can be real quiet >.<
was so shy but kept 'am chio' just now :x
Lindy made it so obvious..
i'm super afraid that he wouldn't like it. =/
..and i got to trouble him to send me home too ):
i feel bad.

that's about it. bye! :DDD

hey.

this is my first post.
just so happen to be in the mood to form a new blog. (:

but i am, still nervous.
i need his face before me...