December

DECEMBER Birthdays: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions.Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

stefan asked me to update.

hello blog! my title clearly stated why i'm here.
hoho. mr wugui is too bored and so he wanted to me to update. =x

Dinner with the class on sat. :D
attendance is 5 out of 20. hurhur! ):
but we enjoyed the dinner and craps!
desmond came and we chatted a little. ^.^
hehehehheheheeeee C240 oei~
SOMEBODY bluffed me bus stop don't have 53 and i actually believed for a few secs =.-
and i met JEFFERY on the bus! :D
didn't realise it was him till he called =/
my first thought was just somebody that looked similar :x
so long since i last saw him yo!
he's going to NS soon! ^.^

jiayou to all who are going to NS! (:

beginning =D

so sorry! i know i havent been posting. =s
busy larrrrrr~ xD

anyway, school has started.
FOC was fun, so is WEEK ZERO!
the camp was filled with MY noise =x
went to sentosa with the school, FBI got the most people! =D
week 1 just ended.
a lot of thoughts and feelings going through my mind =/
mainly the problem with the bonding of the class..
i know tongues may wag but i dont have a choice!
im trying hard to stick with the girls though.
2ndly would be the increasing workload.
i can hardly get my engine started!
oh man, i need help. ):
had a little mood swing recently. going up and down.
kay, i am emotional and i cant help it.
whether you like it or not, people this is me.

yep, enough about school.
i missed out nvss speech day today due to personal reasons.
i am so filled with guilt.
but i am sure all that performed did great for their official stepping down performance. (:
cheers! :)
i miss the band, really.
maybe i am in no position to say anything 'cause i missed out so much..
but all i said is from the bottom of my heart.
i love the band!
esp MeiZhen Gwen LiFang LiangHao Siyi Alanna Heri EeYjourn
they left deep memories in my heart.

last thing i want to post is him. (:
even a short 1 hour with you is enough to drown me for days or even weeks.
thank you, and i'm waiting for my sweet! :D

cheerful ..and mouldy? =o

thank you all who cheered me up yesterday yo! (:
ling is a happy girl again! =D
teehee not being biased but want to thanks Dan specifically for the picture =x
it's so CUTE! ^.^
not sure how many people had seen it before but that was when my mood went up in a short while! :DD

yeap, home for the day.
in front of the comp for hours.
mouldy again. =s

disappointed.

i lost.
dad, i am really disappointed to be questioned that way.
forget it.
you want to know who i was out with, where i went.
you worry that i will follow the wrong people.
you ever wondered what happened around me?
did you even notice that i haven't been feeling well since i was back from camp?
did you bother asking me to share my life with you?
i am always taking my initiative to talk about things happening in school or things that made me upset, hoping for at least your participation in the conversation.
what have i got?
wet blanket.

yes, i have been out till late recently.
i am already feeling bad, but you never know what's in my mind.
that sentence of yours was sure to hurt alright.
you really think i don't give a damn to the family, i am speechless.
the heart and effort i put in went straight to zero, thank you.

you worry i go out with the wrong people.
you bothered knowing who are they?
forget it. you are not interested, insisting they are ALL bad.
i will keep that sentence of yours in mind.
'if you continue to follow the wrong people, you can stop telling people you got 8 points for O level.'
LET ME TELL YOU.
i got 8 points to do you proud.
i don't want to disappoint you.
i want to let you know that your love for me is of worth.
your stress was suffocating but i bear with it because i know you care.
all this while, YOU are the one who is flaunting to the relatives that i got that grades.
i only smiled when relatives talk to me about it.
dad i really hope you can trust me.
worry about me the right way.
i have got nothing to hide from you.
i want to chat with you like we did when i was young.
dad i love you.

WE CAN DO IT

broke down during camp on tue =/
guess i can't really say much,
i wasn't there; i'm in no position.
but i still believe NVSB can do it.
NOTHING beats our fighting spirit and our efforts show!

FOC WAS SUPER GREAT ALRIGHT!
love it to the max! (:
all the cheering left a deep impression in my heart.
NO REGRETS.
met new people, and in fact got to open myself to all kinds of people.
feeling was great.
i took quite some time to open up though.
muhahahahaha, eyecandy was the best part yo.
clashed with Amelia o.o
and he actually asked us who's our eyecandy.
how do we answer? :0
yepp he's number is with me now, but idk how to fish for info :x
*shy* =xxxxx
ytd marks the end of FOC.
mass dance, etc.. i'll never forget. (:

defeat

guess i just have to admit.
i am alone.
i used to be so afraid of being alone,
but i was confident.
i had people around me most time; i was crazy as can be.
now?
i can only laugh, at myself; my past.
i need people there by me, but who exactly?
all around get busy with work/studies.
me?
practically wasting my everyday off, somehow.
i always claim i'm busy.
who knows?
i think i'm lying to myself sometimes.
words fall through me, & logic's a fool.